You know to varying degrees I think a lot of us here have felt ostracised by the people around us or otherwise had a tough time really connecting with them. Some members here have had pretty rough starts to life and for a lot of us, finding the FTF allowed us to express the creative and nerdy side of ourselves with other people who get it. And it's a close-knit community where everyone pretty much knows everyone else; their general info, their personalities, their circumstances etc.
I know that for many of us, regardless of what's going on outside we can put it away and get down to business here. We can let our minds get creative and visualise what life's gonna be like on both the individual level and the broader societal level a few years out, a decade out, millennia out. So whatever's going on outside for you on a day-to-day basis you can always come around here to change to a different gear and those kinds of contributions are the life blood of this forum and community. It's good to have another conscript who already seems like a pretty active poster and it's refreshing to see the forum growing.
Getting drawn into the FTF because of how bright the future could be is also a road well travelled. Everyone has different reasons for it but it's pretty dope getting excited about what's in store and what life can look like. In our private chats we spoke about Jimmy and I think he's part and parcel with a lot of the spirit of this forum. It's about getting our minds wrapped around improving the current situation and ogling something more. For a lot of us the future looked somewhat bleak and this site + forum shows an alternative picture where the future is actually pretty okay. On a personal level it's the same. On the FTF side of things, we'll be wealthier, cities will be cleaner and greener, travel will be cheaper, learning will be easier, communicating with like-minded people will be more convenient etc. On the Jimmy side of things, isolation doesn't have to be a permanent state of affairs. There's plenty of connection all around us and everyone is looking for pretty much the same things out of life, which you can give to them and they can give to you.
So I'm sorry to hear about all the things that have happened to you and it's not a fair way to start out, but I'm happy to see you've found this community and are into people and ideas that I personally drool over. You seem like an amicable and polite enough guy despite the way you've described yourself, so I already like you well enough and I'm keen to see new blood contributing ideas and content here.
P.s., if you have a learning disability then you should fit in really well with Sciencerocks. Dude never learns.
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Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power. - Abraham Lincoln.